what happened..

he picked me up from my girl's krib and we walked over to Gompers Park, holding hands .  i was yelling at him for ditching school and not telling me, leaving me at school learning and shit >:|. hah so we got to gomps at around 4ish and chilled there till 6ish.  we were just chilling at our usual spot, just talking and asking each other random ass questions hehe.  we watched the sun set and while we were, he held me, keeping me all warm :sigh: :).  i started to get sleepy so i put my head on his lap and closed my eyes.  i opened my eyes and the park lights went on and blinded my fucking ass RAWR .  i told him to move his head so the lights would be blocked, but his doucheass kept moving it and making me blindererererer haha.  he FINALLY left his head where it was supposed to be, and i closed my eyes.  5 minutes later, i opened my eyes and he starts moving his head again ehehe that loser >PPP.  he FINAALLYY stays still and i was just about to go take a short nap in his arms but then he looks into my eyes, smiles, and kisses me.  our first kiss. i had to go by then so we get up, and he holds me and..start walking back to my krib and hug and cuddle and hug and cuddle..lalalalala..hehe..

..AND THEN..he kissed&hugged me one last time and when i started to walk away he pulled me and asked me..:siiiiiigh: .  we then shared our first kiss&hug as a couple and walked away

MARCH 23, 2005 @ 6:43 PM

I HAVE A BOYFRIEND MOTHERFUCKERS. :smile:

he there's not much to say but..

maytrix - May 21, 2004 - August 3, 2004

yeah.  i'm already moving on.  i may not want to buh i gottuh.  buh i gottuh admit, im not over him.  he's my 1st love n yeah there will forever be a place in my heart just for him.  kus 1st loves last a lifetime.  NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS i will ALWAYS love him.  yeah i might find another guy and i might happen to fall in love with him, buh i will love patrick ALWAYS and FOREVER, n i mean it.  i just dont want him to fade away from my life.  he was broughten into it n there's no way i want him out.  i wannuh be frenz with him at least n thas kool.  yeah i know that we can't be boyfriend&girlfriend  anymore but i just wannuh be close with him.  i dont want him to fade away kus thas gon kill me.  i wannuh be like close yeno.  i feel so comfortable talking to him n i want it to stay that way.  yeah it might be weird at first buh yeno whatever i still wannuh talk to him.  buh yeah.. i'm moving on.  with the help of my closests, they managed to convince me that i aint needuh trip no more.  i aint gon let this thing bring me down or whatever..long read eh ?  i sed that i didnt have much to say.  lols oops.  buh yeah..if u wannuh worry about me, worry about me.  i'm glad that you care.  i'm moving on as it is.  yeah i still have feelings for him n i may not be over him, buh i'm moving on.  buh i wannuh let you know that you know that im strong emotionally AND physically [kus im BADASS fsho hahah 8)]. 

im stayin strong n keepin mah head up like IT AINT NO THANG .